Hello fellow friends... Im really sorry for my MIA status lol... I had been preoccupied with things.

But it's good to be back. I hope to be posting in something new here. A lot of my work I havent got the time to sort them out and post them in...

I guess I really miss it here... I miss those times where we exchange all sorts of silly exploitable comments... Sigh... those were the good times. I really wonder what stopped... I shouldn't have stopped... ah well, life is complicated... don't even start explaining.

All that matters now, is I still got Jasmika. This is an excuse for me to take a break from reality. Im facing so much drama right now... 1) a group of "female dogs from china" are giving me a hard time in school, 2) a guy that I like doesnt even bother to reply me anymore...(attempt to get closer... *failed* I suck in this stupid love thing He doesn't look interested. Im just lying to myself ha...D:

So that's about it... I dont want to go into details.. anyway this post today is just to Hollar to you all... I miss you guys...

OMG I love peppers… ever since I was young, I have always craved for black peppers!!!

The first time I tasted the spice, it was from my father’s cooking. My daddy is not afraid of fats. He embraces the pureness of real food. Butter and fries and all the goodness that you can find only in Hell. His cooking are the utmost delicious in the most devilish ways. He’s not the ‘kurang manis’ sort of people. I really look up to him.

ANYWAY… it was from my daddy’s cooking that led me to this fetishness. He sprinkled black peppers on his lambs. And I thought I love lambs because of how it has this spicy taste to it. Until as I grew older and wiser, I found it, it wasn’t the lamb at all. It had always been the peppers!!!

I usually watch cartoons how the evil monsters usually sprinkle so much sugar on their preys. Remember the cartoon, Tom and Jerry? Yeah, Tom usually sprinkle so much sugar on Jerry before he it’s it. But as soon as I tasted White pepper, I got addicted. And that was when it clicked! Tom wasn’t sprinkling sugar, he was sprinkling Pepper!!! No wonder it didn’t make sense! XDD I was like, why the hell are these Americans obsess with Sugars?! HAHAHAH now I know… it wasn’t sugar at all. It has always been the peppers.

I’m a pepper obsess. My family doesn’t know. I try not to be so obvious in front of my mum whenever I borrow her white peppers lol. The first few people who’d found out about my fetishness were my colleagues from Mall. They thought I was insane. Cuz usually they only use peppers in their Soto noodles lol.

But my fav has always been the black peppers with its royal sauce. ^^

Hi everybody it’s been long since I update with y’all. I would just want to re-introduce my so called life after college.

I started working in July 2007 at F.O.S (Factory Outlet Store), until the first of January 2008. F.O.S was my first real job. Everything before that were just voluntary. Then in August up till September I had two jobs. I juggled two part time jobs. I planned to stay that way until I get into a school. Unfortunately, I had to quit one of it to concentrate on my exam. So I quit the tuition school instead. Yeah, I was working in Flying Colours Tuition School.

While still in F.O.S I applied for jobs in both Baiduri Bank and Royal Brunei Airlines. I was called up for a written test in Baiduri. I was confident that they would call me up for an interview next. Cuz the tests were very easy. And sure enough they called me for an interview. But this time, it was really bad. It was So bad that I think I was reallllly lame in there. It was horrible.

Before the interview they gave me a form to fill in and I saw, we need like a written test and THREE interviews!!! So I was like.. omg… my first interview is already like shit. They’re not going to call me for a second one now. TT_TT *cry*

A month and few days later, Baiduri called me up. And not only was I shocked that they had considered calling me up again for a second interview.. I was trilled they don’t need to interview me the second time!!! They were very much impressed by my enthusiasm and my eagerness to join with their team. I was employed on the spot!

Then after a few weeks in Baiduri Bank.. I started thinking about RBA. How I had wished I were there instead of Baiduri. I mean Baiduri is a really great place. But my real passion was in RBA. I love flying… I love adventures… I love the aircrafts… I wished I were a pilot. But those dreams were just… dreams.

I forgot to mention… while I was still in F.O.S, RBA called me up for an interview as well. And it was worse than Baiduri’s. I remember I applied for stewardess –or anything. So I was being called up a few months later. I came unprepared. I didn’t know what I was going to be interviewed for. I was so sure it would be as a stewardess. But instead, I was wrong of course. It was a clerical interview. I went in so very unprepared. I was being interviewed for a position in corporate communication. I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA WHAT SO EVER ON THAT! They asked my opinion on the position. I just spoke my mind out. I had already given up hope. But I just tried my best anyway.

A few weeks later in Baiduri… I was thinking about RBA. Not that I don’t like my job as a Banker. But I really love flying. I didn’t care about the money. I just… I guess I don’t really like sitting around morning to evening in the same room as everybody doing PAPER WORKS! (then again RBA gave me paper work as well anyways)

And yes, I was called by RBA to confirm my interest with them. I was so trilled. And yes, I start commencing with them next month. I don’t care what people say about RBA. Greedy people would hate RBA. But I just like it there for what they do. It’s a place for aircrafts, and that is what only matters.

I miss Baiduri.. despite the fact that I’d only been there for quite a while… I had already known a few faces. And became friends with most, even the regular cleaners, and customers… I like them all. They are such nice people.

I have been through quite a lot. I also miss all the people I’ve become acquainted with in Mall.. people from the first floor to the third… and as well as my fav customers. I don’t like them, not necessary do they have to buy things from me, or that I hav to serve them every time they come to my counter in the Bank. No, I like them because they’re such nice people. I got a star from a customer in Bank during my few days of working there. It was an encouragement. I was so deeply touched when she hand me the approval card. I was so shocked that she actually knew my name. I was so happy.

But really, I don’t want to work. I just want to go back to school. I’m reapplying for UBD and this time, applying for ITB as well. I’m also resitting my June. I will not give up trying until I get it.

I know i said im working office hours. But..the truth is.. Almost everyday we'll have to stay over time. Break time is lonely time. I hate break time. But im only desperate to go out if im dying of boredom over there. Sheesh... Either ways..it's hell. Being inside, i got nothing to do. Being outside, i got nowhere to go. So i just go to a bakery store. Get a bun then go to a 'deserted' restaurant -so no1 wud find me i guess. Lol n den order a teh tarik just so i have an excuse to stay. LOL!! IM SERIOUS! Im SO lonely here! It's embarrassing.

last night i went shopping at the Mall by myself. It's been a while since i did that. Felt good to throw my stress there. I poured my litre of tears on my old f.o.s and Vstana colleagues. They were quite happy to see me. I miss them. Sumhow.. Im still nervous abt my job. Im so scared... So very paranoid, n freaked.. D: today's my first day 'touch on' meaning on the computer. I have yet to serve someone soon. Im so scared. My boss kept teasing me the 'challenging one' sheeeeeeshh enough of that already!!! Dat woman is SO Hazel! OH MY GOD..SHE'S A HAZEL TWIN!!! Believe me! They r identical!!!! They even sound the same! From their built to their characters n even their voice!!!!!!! Eeeeee!!! And trust me, working along side someone like Hazel, is a hell bound situation! Fussy, motherly and so and so.. See how Hazel is.. THAT'S how my boss is! However the one incharge of me... Is a man. Talk abt him sum other time.

today's my third day.. It's better. I didnt fall asleep tis time lol wth... Ok i g2g back work now. I miss y'all. Me must go out Sat afternoon or sunday! Main badminton n gadong!!! MUST!

ok happy nu year everybaday...

Yes I noe… I’m so sekadar… u dun have to remind me XD I just wanna blog this up as a memorial for my 19th birthday XP If u have a prob wf dat… well u’re just gonna have to deal wf it > hehe~

Thank you everybody for remembering me hehe~ When I reread all the messages, no matter how short or long they are, I still feel very much touched that they would spare just a few second to leave me a wish. The most touching part is where my old friends (whom I haven’t been in contact for a LONG time..) –would leave me a message as well. It’s touching how they still remember me. –cuz I’m the one who lost their contact x_x aaah sorry!

I’m so happy~ Anyways… verbally my Big Sis wished me. She wouldn’t Dare to forget my birthdate. I’d KILL her personally XD lol! We had a count down together in her room. Zhen fell asleep so it was just Mok and me counting (sort of). –Mok fell asleep, and I was just waiting for midnight so we could get it all over and done wf, so can switch off the lights and go back to sleep. I couldn’t sleep cuz I was feeling paranoid, what if her dad comes in and scold us for leaving the light on and all… so I stayed up to keep watch =_=”

12am I got my very first present from my sister. And the next morning, I receiver a Birthday choir from Mok and her maid, and a hand shake from sleepy-Zhen and a wish. Her maid cooked me 2 packets of mee-goreng + clam With cold Vegetable juice. Had breakfast with Mok. And later, got an ang pau from my Godmother heee…

anyhoo these are the texts I got… Thank you everybody!!!


Text messages from friends and Family:
Mill:
Jas happy birthday! I cant say as much as I want to coz my credit’s really low. Have fun celebrating my dear. Im sorry I couldn’t be there to celebrate with you. Miss you loads (9:25pm 30/3/2007)

Piro:
Happy birthday bitch! >:3
LOL JUST KIDDING!!
SORRY~
So er.. Omg 19 already! Well since it is ur birthday, you can pay back the ebil things I did to you for these past years~! im looking forward to it! Wooohaa! (12:04am 31/3/2007)

Azimah:
Jasmine!! Happy 19th Birthday.. Wishing you longlife.. Cherish your special day with joy and happiness ayte.. Hehe.. (12:15am 31/3/2007)

Angeline:
Happy birthday to youuu. Happy birthday to u, happy birthday my darlin jas! Happy birthday to youuu! Mwahks! Im so glad to have met you dearie as you are such a great person to know hope you have many great years to come, have a great year! GOD BLESS YOU! LOVE YOU! (12:34am 31/3/2007)

Qing:
Happy Birthday, Jasmine! Good luck in everything you do. Enjoy your bday! Hope you have a wonderful weekend. (12:41am 31/3/2007)

Chica:
Hapi bday to you 2x~ hapi bday 2 jasm~ hapi bday 2 u~
Hey! U’r 19th now~ weL wish u with longevity, prosperity, haPineZ & Success owez! Thanx 4 being such a great buddy! U’r among d BESTEST fren I’ve ever known! I Love You Jasm~ Im glad 2 have you as a part of my life! So GUDLUCK in everything you do! Stay focus 2 ur aims! Sorry if I ever hurt you! Remember 1 thing~ I’L try my best 2 b around if you should need me! K hav fun 2day tiL 4eva! LOL~ Oh n im so sorry 4 diz late msg! C ya.. (2:33am 31/3/2007)

Christina@Largo:
Heya, its ur b’day! So wish u happy birthday. 19 yrs u hav been to this world n many years to come. Stay the way u are coz it is u. (3:09am 31/3/2007)

Kenjiro(brother):
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FROM ME,MOM,FELICIA AND ALL THE SWIMMERS. GOD BLESS (9:16am 31/3/2007)

Mother:
Happy birthday we are on our way back now (9:23am 31/3/2007)

April:
Happy birthday jasmine! Hope you have a great day! take care and God bless. (10:51am 31/3/2007)

Fish:
Happy birth-(coming out from vagina) day Jasmine~ hahaha.. Take care of yourself ah~ XD (12:54pm 31/3/2007)

Joy-Joy@Joyce:
Hey Jasmine! Happy birthday to you! May you have an awesome day. God has definitely blessed you with many gifts. See yourself through His eyes! (1:12pm 31/3/2007)

Wan:
Ni hao, happy b’day to u jas, so a bit late, happy happy 19th birthday to u, yea makin tuha wah si dayang ane hehe (3:18pm 31/3/2007)

Sabreena:
Jaaaaasm!!! I rove you~ yes I dooo~ Happy 19th birthday u booger!! I love you you ass! U know I do! Have a great birthday tday jasm! I love u bebeh! <3 Sab (5:06pm 31/3/2007)

Foxeh:
Lol oh yeah hor.
*poke* Happy Birthday ah. All the best in play, study and work. Huhuhuhu.. Remember to lanja ah XD (7:42pm 31/3/2007)

Izzati:
Did u get my online greetings? Hapy bday hehe mis u (8:45pm 31/3/2007)

Chica:
Btw Yati said hapi bday 2 u.
DJ too! (11:08pm 31/3/2007)

Hazel:
JASMINE!!!!!! Happy 19th BIRTHDAY!!!! (11:45pm 31/3/2007)

Shin:
Happy belated birthday jasmine~ sorry for the lateness hehe. Well wishes for you all the time. *Hugs* (1:36am 1/4/2007)



Note Messages, Comments, Testimonials, from FS, Facebook, Deviantart
Izzati:
happy advanced birthday!!! (22/3/2007) –one of the earliest of the earliest person to give me a wish. Banyak lagituu… on 29th, 30th and 31st lol~ Kiasu~ but it’s touching… lol cuz it’s almost hard to forget my own bday when I can have someone like a Zati to remind me X3 huhuu…

Deng:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY…
I know what you’re doing! (23/3/2007 on FS testimonial)

YengFang:
Happy Bufday in advance!!
Enjoy ur Bufday o...
Make a Wish! Make A Wish!!
take carez and stay Pwetty!! (23/3/2007 on FS testimonial)

Monah:
hey jasmine!! its been a long time since i met u.. just dropping by to say happy b'day!!! best wishes.. hugs n kisses n u look pretty in that photo (27/3/07 on FS testimonial)
Azimah:
jasmine~~~ my twin.... haha... hai dear~
just wanna say happy advance b'day jasmine... hav a nice day~ (28/3/2007 on FS comment)

Feroz:
Hewo thre ehe jz dropin hye n 2wish u a vewy early advancd bufday hehe may u enjoy d8 day 2d fullest n wish u pnjng umo,murah rzeki n sucess inboth lyf n academic/career (^~^) (29/3/07 on FS testimonial)

Wetarded@Nis:
happy birthday!! <3<3<3
Have a nice day ;D (30/3/2007 on Deviantart Note)

AsmaLina:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!
may all dreams come true.take care dear.
hug2kiss2 (30/3/2007 on FS comment)

Jasmina:
Dearest Jasmine,
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to dear Jasmine
Happy Birthday to you..
May all your dreams come true and best of luck in everything you do..
Love, Jasmina (30/3/2007 on FS testimonial)

amiezahra:
yuhhuu.. hepi buzday fwen! wish u healthy & hepi owez (30/3/2007 on FS testimonial)

Izzati:
**boooooooooooooooooooooo happy birthday kambang ^ ^ (29/3/2007 on Facebook wall)
**~showing some love on ur wall~
U r kambang, but i rule even better in terms of kambang-ness and vanity..HAHHAHAHA
kidding kidding
miss you (29/3/2007 on facebook wall)
**jasmine joint happy birthday
showing some love mmmuah (30/3/2007 on FS comment)

ashley:
happy birthday jasmine~. enjoy you're newly turned age C= (does not know how old are you turning to... 19?) sorry for that... =v= (30/3/2007 on FS estimonial)

JasonLYJ:
elooo happy birthday may God bless u abundantly and that you'll continue to grow in Him. Dont ever let Him go for He holds all things together have a good one! (31/3/2007 on Facebook wall)

NatashaChan:
**Hey Jasmine! I have a feeling I should know you... but I don't. Jog my memory! In any case, Happy 19th Birthday! Wishing you all the best. (31/3/2007 on Facebook wall)
**Were you the Jasmine in the G class back in primary school -- Macdougal? If so, then I do remember you!!! It's been freaking ages, hasn't it? You weren't as quiet as you think you are, hehehe. You made a presence in my life anyway! You're welcome! Hope you had a great birthday! (1/4/2007 on Facebook wall)

DKS:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! (31/3/2007 on FS testimonial)

Rachel:
hey(:
happy birthday!
hows you? (31/3/2007 on FS testimonial)

abigail:
hey gurl!!HAPPY BDAY!!GOD BLESS!!keep on rawking 4 God.. (31/3/2007 on FS testimonial)

Shurrley:
happy birthday, jasmine!
shurrley #13 (31/3/2007 on FS testimonial)

Hilal:
Jasmine's birthday is TODAY
enjoy ur once a year bday and enjoy the long holidays (31/3/2007 on FS testimonial)

Leez:
Happy 19th bfday. Helo jasm,happy 19th bfday, enjoy ur day,today is ur day, may god blez u n success in ur life (31/3/2007 on FS message)

RafieHS:
Happy birthday, Jasmine. (31/3/2007 on FS comment)

Diana:
OH OH
HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYY!
2 hours late but still (31/3/2007 on FS comment)

FarahFarhana:
happy b'day jasmine! *hugz* (12:47am 1/4/2007 on FS message) –only 47minutes late

Bashi:
Oh yea. Your birthday (grumbles for forgetting BUT remembering yesterday instead) Happy Birthday kiddo. (1/4/2007 on Deviantart comment)

Shu-en:
awww i forgot your b-day... i am so SORRY!! can you forgive me????
Congratulations afterwards ^^°°° i wanted to sleep at your home....sorry!!!!!!!
*goes in knees in front of you* forgive me! (1/4/2007 on Deviantart comment)

Feroz:
AsQum
Hey thx 4aceptin my add n owh hepi blated bday btw may ol ur dreamz n wishes cum thru n sucess in both academic n lyf ehe kip touch stay cute n lovely (~^,)
AsQum~ (1/4/2007 on FS testimonial)